Saturday, March 13, 2004
Kiss me... I'm gone!
Well, gone to coven6.com after today you'll see no more posts here. I still have a few things that I need to do to the new page but most of them are just asthetic.
go there sign up... log in and enjoy.
Well, gone to coven6.com after today you'll see no more posts here. I still have a few things that I need to do to the new page but most of them are just asthetic.
go there sign up... log in and enjoy.
Friday, March 12, 2004
WTF ?!?!?!CNN.com - 'Idol' reject Hung gets record deal
Do you hear that noise? That is the sound of every legitimate artist out there that has no deal and is seeking one being kicked in the nuts.
Do you hear that noise? That is the sound of every legitimate artist out there that has no deal and is seeking one being kicked in the nuts.
Friday, March 05, 2004
Don't you hate it when somebody tells you something and then follows it up by saying "You can say a word about this you understand?"
ESPECIALLY when it's monsterously good news?! FUCK I HATE THIS SHITE!! I want to talk about this SO bad but I can't. I gotta shut up now before I talk too much.
I'll let you know as soon as I can. heh heh
ESPECIALLY when it's monsterously good news?! FUCK I HATE THIS SHITE!! I want to talk about this SO bad but I can't. I gotta shut up now before I talk too much.
I'll let you know as soon as I can. heh heh
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
Had an interesting talk last night while I was working. Karen came by to say hi and ended up staying for about 2 hours. We talked about everything from our past. Literally. What we did, why we did and where it got us. Her story was far less depressing than mine.
We went on and on about how we both felt letting the other go was a mistake. Probably the biggest of our lives. End result. I'm not even sure how long a friendship would last. She is still very optimistic and I on the other hand am like day old coffee, cold and bitter. Those were nearly her words. She, as usual, sees right through me. She knows exactly what buttons to push to get an honest response. I don't think the answer is what she was looking for.
When we got to the subject of relationships between then and now she could see that I have taken a lot of abuse by a lot of women. Not physical, but mental. So many have said they loved me, only to turn around and be found fucking somebody else. I can count on one hand the women I've had serious relationships with (at least they were serious on my end) where my "other half" was faithful. As a result I have serious trust issues.
She'd have to work way too hard to earn that trust. Though she never defied it herself. She'd have to get past my issues with drinking and smoking. I still drink like a fish and smoke like a damned chimney. Karen doesn't care for either. She's conservative republican. I'm left wing libertarian. She's had 1 relationship since me. I've had 7. I know, long periods of not even dating in the last 10 years. Only 2 that I would, or still do talk to. She's made a good life. I've made a good mess. She's very level headed and strong now. Supporting herself and her 2 kids. (Who look just like me oddly enough). I'm so far in debt It'll be quicker to dig the other way to get out.
What it came down to is this. We are totally different people now. Both to oursleves and to others. The physical attraction in still there. But the heart isn't. My heart simply can't go there. Even if I really wanted it to. My head says yes to her. My groin certainly says HELL FUCKIN YEAH!! My heart, my heart says not a rats chance in a cat farm.
I can't for the life of me remember the name of the song. But right now it fits. I'll be ok as long as she stays gone. I think I've seen the last of my perfect love gone very bad. There's some material for Kevin and or Rick. A heart felt "you fucked me without meaning to fuck me" song from Kevin and a sick demented song of the same ilk from Rick.
We went on and on about how we both felt letting the other go was a mistake. Probably the biggest of our lives. End result. I'm not even sure how long a friendship would last. She is still very optimistic and I on the other hand am like day old coffee, cold and bitter. Those were nearly her words. She, as usual, sees right through me. She knows exactly what buttons to push to get an honest response. I don't think the answer is what she was looking for.
When we got to the subject of relationships between then and now she could see that I have taken a lot of abuse by a lot of women. Not physical, but mental. So many have said they loved me, only to turn around and be found fucking somebody else. I can count on one hand the women I've had serious relationships with (at least they were serious on my end) where my "other half" was faithful. As a result I have serious trust issues.
She'd have to work way too hard to earn that trust. Though she never defied it herself. She'd have to get past my issues with drinking and smoking. I still drink like a fish and smoke like a damned chimney. Karen doesn't care for either. She's conservative republican. I'm left wing libertarian. She's had 1 relationship since me. I've had 7. I know, long periods of not even dating in the last 10 years. Only 2 that I would, or still do talk to. She's made a good life. I've made a good mess. She's very level headed and strong now. Supporting herself and her 2 kids. (Who look just like me oddly enough). I'm so far in debt It'll be quicker to dig the other way to get out.
What it came down to is this. We are totally different people now. Both to oursleves and to others. The physical attraction in still there. But the heart isn't. My heart simply can't go there. Even if I really wanted it to. My head says yes to her. My groin certainly says HELL FUCKIN YEAH!! My heart, my heart says not a rats chance in a cat farm.
I can't for the life of me remember the name of the song. But right now it fits. I'll be ok as long as she stays gone. I think I've seen the last of my perfect love gone very bad. There's some material for Kevin and or Rick. A heart felt "you fucked me without meaning to fuck me" song from Kevin and a sick demented song of the same ilk from Rick.
